Over and over in my prayer life I have given God permission to refine me, to make me grow, and to help me attain my highest good no matter how He had to do it. Sometimes I've questioned that prayer when it seemed all hell was breaking loose in my life. I've been through refiner's fire; indeed I've been through many firings that I thought might break me, yet God always gave me the strength to come out on the other side, stronger, smarter, more trusting that no matter how hard I fall, God has my back. For those of us who grew up in an environment of fear that's what it takes, falling over and over, always seeing that Spirit is my safety net, and I am better for the pain. The irony I suppose is I chose this. I want to be all I was destined to be no matter what it takes.